So I had a fun trip even if I didn't get much sleep and had to do a lot of work but sadly I think it has made me sick. We were working in freezing cold weather and it seemed that a lot of the time it was either snowing or raining so my boots were always soaked! So now I am sadly at home and sick with 102 degree temp. I am hoping I will be fine soon seeing as I have already missed a week of work with the guard and next month I am taking a month vacation to visit people in DC and my parents. I am definitely ready for the vacation but I wish I would hear about grad school already! Anyway I guess I don't have much to update, so Happy Holidays!

So I have come to realize I have an quite expensive addiction. I am totally addicted to traveling. I haven't really gone anywhere because lately I have been going to classes and work so that makes me pretty busy and not much time to get anywhere. Well all work and no play had made me start to get a little cranky. So luckily I am taking a work trip next week. While it is still work it will get me out of Kansas and I will be doing a little me time. No more worrying about school or anything I need to do other than just relaxing, catching up on sleep, and reading. Of course the work I will have to do will be involved as well but at least during flying time I don't need to worry about any of this.

Also, there is a list of things I have been meaning to write about but haven't had the time. First of all I took my last final today so that is probably the most exciting thing currently. Then there is the fact that I had a talk with our manager yesterday about the new position I am applying for. I couldn't make the interview today so we are just rescheduling it for Feb, it is so far away but at least well get to try out the job now for a couple weeks to make sure we both still want it. But on that note she told me something I wasn't aware of and actually kind of appalled to hear. She said that people have come to her with the concern that I will be too lazy to do a good job as a secretary! WTF. On more than one occasion people have told me I am one of if not their favorite person to work with. I just listened to her and told her I was surprised to hear this but didn't want to sound defensive even though I was about to get quite angry. Anyway on a new note. First snow that stuck was today, and I really can't remember a lot of the stuff I had wanted to blog about before so maybe I should start making sticky notes to remind me of what I am going to write so I don't keep forgetting stuff. :(

So I was watching MTV hits while cleaning the house and a Christina Aguilera special came on and they played Candy Man which made me realize how much I loved Benji so for those of you who miss him too feel free to enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKmP25r-nzk

So this has been quite a long holiday. I worked this Thanksgiving and holidays aren't that bad to work. They are normally a little calmer and we do a lot of eating. I know most people like spending it with their family and such but it is nice to know you are helping others while they are stuck in a time where they feel more vulnerable being stuck in the hospital. While I don't wish anyone to have to spend their holidays or any day in the hospital it is a rewarding career and a difficult one. We had a patient pass away the night before Thanksgiving. While it doesn't feel like it has fully set in yet her and her family have been in our thoughts on our floor. I think it would have been a much different experience had I been there the night they took her to the pediatric ICU or the night she passed away. It was hard for many people on the floor and she will be missed.
They always say that deaths come in threes and I am scared for this event. I have become close with many of our cystic fibrosis patients and this is the experience I was afraid of with being on my floor. These kids are all terminal and will most likely die before they really get to live their life. While every day they face their mortality I hope they live it the best they can. And this is just a little reminder to treasure every day. I know it sounds corny but I thought it should be said anyway.

TGIF

So really I am not thankful that is Friday because tomorrow is going to be the start of my week but oh well. Have to name these blogs something. I am going to be quite busy as I have to take a test over 5 or 6 chapters on Tuesday which I haven't started studying for. Obviously seeing as I don't even know how much material is covered for this test. I know I should have started a long time ago seeing as online classes mean that I have to keep up on my own. But really I am reaching my breaking point of working full time and taking 10 hour of classes and additional days at the guard. I know these are all my own choices so I can't complain too much and it is bettering myself. But still a little too much for right now and I am going to be very glad that is over.

But the real point of this blog to discuss a sad piece of news. I have had a little piece of my macbook that has been hanging on for dear life for a long time and today, today it has finally broken off. I know for most of you this is not going to be sad and not going to affect your day. But I am sad and soon I am going to drown my sorrows in sushi. I will hopefully do better about updating soon but until then, hope everyone enjoys their weekend, I will be working Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Ah the joys of 36 hours in 3 days...

school is almost over :)

So, nothing is really new in my life so I just wanted to let you know the few things I am looking forward to (which really are the end of classes)

-8 more days of class
-only 2 more homework assignments
-9 more tests
-a few discussions
and I'm done!!! while it means nothing to most of you, I just always feel like on my dyas off I am spending so much of it work on homework even if I am not. one thing you always forget about being back in classes is that it is always on your mind that there is something you can be doing, like all the chapters I need to be reading for these tests but I am not...

Halloween (a few days late)

So I know that a Halloween post now is a little late but it is just really a recap of my birthday festivities and craziness. It was great to see all the people I never see due to my busy semester with classes, work at the hospital, and work at the guard. It was nice to just let loose and not really care what happens because at the end of the night I always have the excuse of, well it is my birthday! I was trying to start off the night slow because I wanted to remember most of what happened and enjoy every one's company but due to a series of shots, that didn't happen so gracefully.
We started off at Sol Cantina in Martini Corner. A large group of us were there and we were getting to relocate so I was gathering the gang. One of the guys I had been talking to was like where was that, so since he was wearing a sign I got a pen that just said call me and I'll help you get there. Well, we hadn't left after a few minutes because everyone just wanted me to wait for them to finish their drinks. Little did I know that that guy had a girlfriend and she came up to me pissed, well I talked to her a bit, she cooled down but then she was all over the boyfriend all night to make clear they were together. Geez people, please be secure enough in your relationship that you don't need to freak out. I had just met these people because one of my friends brought them and I can't say I think much of the crazy girlfriend. My friend came up to apologize to me later because her friend was possessive but no big deal. We just relocated without them.
So that brings me to Harlings, it was so much fun there with all the dancing, and drinking, and more free shots because it was my birthday but that really lead to the downfall to extreme intoxication. I had left most of the group of friends I started out with but really while I love the large group because it reinforces how much my friends love me but it is harder to talk to everyone. Anyway, we left this place only due to the fact they were a cash only bar and the guys were ready to head down to power and light. Sadly, this trip was quite short because my roommate started felling poorly, so we made a quick round through PBR to try to find someone and then headed home. Not a bad night though seeing as it was already 2 in the morning and I was ready to make it into bed.
So for everyone who is still reading this long blog, I though wow, I did quite well, I don't feel sick and I am sure I'll feel fine like I normally do in the morning. WRONG! I have not been that hungover in I don't know, ever? It was sad, I was starving so I kept trying to eat something small but that always ended in the same outcome, me revisting whatever food I ate. Finally after I showered, fell asleep, and threw up countless times I choked down some saltines. Soon after I started feeling better but the only thing that sounded good was a Panera bread bowl. I put on some sweats and my wet hair and was ready to just make a quick trip and hope no one saw me in my scrubby look, but unfortunately I ran into Dan H. I just hate running into people when I look terrible and they look great. Anyway, no big deal, we caught up for a while and he told me he was buying a condo here. We did the fake friend thing and said we'd have to catch up the next time he was in town, or at least when he has a housewarming party, and the rest of the day I spent lazily until I went to dinner with my brother. It was a fabulous 25th and since all of you who read are younger than I am I hope a quarter of a century is just as nice to you (other than the hangover of course).

Man I suck at keeping this updated

So, for my few followers it has been over a month since I last updated. Today is my mom's birthday and tomorrow is mine. It is just a busy birthday month in my family. I haven't really been up to much lately. I do a lot of homework, haven't done a lot of reading. But I know that I am way behind in my classes and I am starting towards the downward hump where I don't really care any more. I am starting to get so lazy. I think it is just becoming too much to go to class on days I don't work and being so incredibly busy on every day off. It was really a poor idea to take a TDY to AK last week. It made it so that I worked 6 days in a row and had many assignments to do when I got back and study for a test that I was missing while I was gone. I wish I kept up with this more so that I could do real updates because I am not sure what has really gone on in my life. Maybe during hung over on the couch day (Saturday) I will have a fun birthday story!

What a weekend!

Well, I had a nice little Saturday planned and this is how it went:

I started the day by going to my niece's 1st birthday party. Man alive there were a lot of children there. It makes me realize I am not ready to have kids yet. While I love my nieces and nephew. That is about the extent of how many children I want in a room at once. It was crazy have all those kids running around in a small spaces, and there there were the parents, and all the furniture. I feel like I am going to have to have a very large place with a play room by the time I have kids, so any prospects of suitors better have good jobs that make lots of mulah!

Then I went to my friend's housewarming party. While it felt like I drove forever to get there, I am sure part of it was because I picked up a friend. But either way she lives in Olathe off of 119th and Woodland. It took while to get there but is was quite worth it. Her house is so cute and also all the appetizers she made were delicious! It is always a little awkward to be with a bunch of people you don't know and a crazy mother in law it was fun nevertheless.

Last but of course not lease, my friend Hailey is moving to San Antonio with her fiance so she had a little going away party at Kelly's in Westport. I am pretty sure everyone was fearing for my life for some reason. But I brought a friend and made it home safely. He even said if someone had to take a bullet he would do it for the both of us. What a sweetie. Anyway, it was fun to see her because it has been ages since we have hung out, and Jon figure out Gary and him had a lot of mutual friends so at least he had someone to talk to. It was quite an interesting night as to when Hailey's dress broke...definite wardrobe malfunction. So we snuck into the bathroom to try to fix it. We figure out that we couldn't but these are the series of events that led to a dress that was stapled together. First we just took off the dress and tried to move the zipper down, that didn't work but we got half the zipper down. So then we decided that we would hold and pull on the zipper as hard as we could, all that did pull off that side of the zipper, we tried to figure out how we could put it back on. The dress was sewn at the bottom so we ripped the dress to the bottom, unfortunately while bringing the zipper down to the bottom both sides fell off. At that point the Waiter came back to see how we were doing, he offered us paper clips and a stapler. We pretty much just laughed when he brought the paper clips because what the hell are you going to do with that? So after that long explanation, we get to where we just used a seem of staples to put it back together, the best part is that the stapler was a little broken so we had to open it ever step of the way. It may have been a you had to be there kind of moment, but we definitely have a new meaning to have you seen my stapler?

Ok, so here's what has been going on since the beginning of September. I am now into the point in classes where I am having a test about every week. Luckily the classes I am taking the test are currently scattered but it pulls my focus to one class primarily and I am not sure that is good (seeing as I am falling behind in reading). Oh well there isn't much I can do about that. I am also not use to classes having so many assignments and discussions that need to be done. I guess online classes may not be the way to go, but I just couldn't imagine spending anymore time on campus than I already do.

I went to my friend Carlye's wedding and it was a blast. It was a lot of people from work and apparently we all like drink and party! Anyway, there will soon be another one as Erin is getting married in only weeks and I have her bachelorette party to look forward to. Apparently she is getting some sort of stripper pole. Not sure what that is going to be all about, but I am sure it is going to be fun.

Other than that I have a lot of weekends to work coming up. It appears that I am going to be working three out of four weekends next month :( and the only one I have off is for the wedding. Oh well I guess that is the price I pay for only working one last month.

Also, people at work and by people I really mean person have apparently not developed past grade school. I can't believe we are still tattling at this day and age.

I should probably be heading to work but I thought I would put a random smattering of thoughts and things that have been going on just so there is an update!

Also, this to look forward to this weekend: my niece's first birthday party, Kristin's housewarming party, Hailey's going away party, and maybe some sleep...

it has been far too long

So, I am sure I don't have much of a following seeing as I haven't really told that many people about this but either way I should try to be better about keeping people updated on my life. So not much is new lately. My weekends are getting taken over with weddings and working. I can't complain though life in general is pretty good. I will have a real post soon though. I am sure you are waiting on the edge of your seat.

what a weekend

So once again it was drill weekend so it is exhausting between working Friday and Monday at the hospital and then the weekend in Topeka. Lots of driving and lots of training.

First of all the weekend didn't start off great seeing as I didn't wake up until 7:15 and that is the when my supervisor asked me to be at work on drill weekends so that I can make sure I have a plan for everyone once the morning meetings are over. I called in and just got ready at a regular pace because I didn't want to forget anything and really there is no reason to rush when I am already that late. And on top of that they were fit testing so no one would be around until that was over. When I showed up people we still running so I was just going to sit around and not do much, most likely clean out my email but unfortunately the phone rang as soon as I got there asking for someone to watch UAs (urinary analysis). Being pretty much one of the only girls qualified I had to do it again! I was pissed, I had just done it a couple months back. When I got back I was basically just told that if they ever called again to tell them to go else where and find someone to do it because we weren't giving up any of our girls. We don't have that much time to waste every weekend and they needed to get the rest of the unit to participate. I think the thing that sucks the most about it is that I spend the first half of my day down out at the clinic telling people how to do a UA and then watch them pee. Just a big waste. They need to find their own group of people to do it.

Oh well, so to get to the rest of the weekend, there really wasn't that much going on. We went out and working in the rain which sucked because it was cold but we're much like the post office, rain or shine. Sunday we just worked on training stuff which means I stayed inside for most of the morning while I sent others to help people because we didn't have anything we needed to do. I guess all in all it was an easy weekend. It is just exhausting to work 4 days in a row when 2 of the are 12 hour shifts and then the other two were only 9 hours but about 2.5 hours in driving time.

what and odd day

So today was quite interesting. I was going to meet my brother for lunch and there was a car parked behind mine so I couldn't get out. After looking at it for a second and the fact that it was still running I called a friend of mine to debate whether or not I should just move it. While I was on the phone with her the owner of the car came out and I asked her to move it. She said she would be done in a couple of minutes. I told her that I had somewhere to be and would appreciate if she moved it now. She told me just to wait she was almost done. I told her that she was being rude and that she should move her car now. She then says you can see people are obviously moving stuff in and it was rude that I was ask her to do so. So at this point I was beyond pissed and just started telling her that the world does not revolve around her and that she was inconsiderate and a bitch and asked her to move her car again. Obviously she didn't move it and asked if I was going to call the cops on her. I said no and got into my car pissed, with that kind of trashy behavior I should have but seriously I don't have that kind of time, it is just stupid that she wouldn't move her car and was so rude about it and not apologizing once.

The best part of this story is I came home to meet a friend and then we were headed out to Target, in the span of 5 minutes when I went to get my friend someone parks behind my car and I can't get out to go to target, at least he was apologetic but still so annoying!

younger men

So this will be a short one but I thought I would share my funny experience at work yesterday. I got phlembotomy certified a while ago which means I can do lab draws on patients. So we had a 17 year old who needed labs so I went in there to draw his blood. He was totally milking the fact that we are pretty much all girls on the floor working and doing stuff he asked us to. He started joking around and making me nervous on the lab draw but it went fine and I got all the blood we needed. So I leave the room and my friend is in there and he starts asking about me. How old I am, if I would date him. Basically my friend just told him you are too you and she would get fired. He then told her, well I am going to hit on her anyway.

it is hard to be on top

So I am not sure I will keep this updated well but it is worth a shot. I am most likely just use this as an outlet to rant and feel free to tell me I am out of line but I think sometimes things are just to frustrating to keep inside and I feel bad always complaining to my friends. So in turn if you choose to read this you are forcing my whining upon yourself :)

I had drill this weekend and it was a four day drill so it pretty much was my whole week and I had to work at the hospital and go to class so I was a little drained. Unfortunately when I am tired or stressed I just don't become the nicest person. I get irritated easily and am more moody. I know this is a flaw but I find the guard to be an annoyance sometimes. There are so many double standards but when I weigh benefits over draw backs I just can't see quitting just yet.

Anyway, to get to the point. This weekend is just another week of being an trainer. I am suppose to be training two other guys on my crew because I am the highest ranking of the traditionals which means the people who work the one weekend a month two weeks a year. The problem with that is that I am the youngest person on our crew and of course the only female. While these two things shouldn't matter I feel like they do. I asked them to do stuff over and over again and they never seemed to get done. I would make a decision to get something done and they would question whether or not that was the correct choice. I really just got to the point where I was so mad that I told them what to do and left them to do my own thing. I just can't believe that when someone asks you to do something you question what they say and argue with them. These are learning experiences and isn't it just easier to do what you are asked. I just ended up doing it myself and am going to have to figure out another way to get my point across. I don't know how well it is going to go but we are going to have to sit down to talk and figure out something that will work for us because I can't go to work every month and just get pissed off and hate being there. I am not going to let them ruin my experience.